Memories That Speak
I have letters from my mom and
dad. They are in my room, near my bed on
the little night stand where I keep my lamp and clock. Mom and dad have passed on. I picked up one letter not too long ago. It was from my mom. It was painful to read. She wrote about the ordinary things that a
mom writes to a son – the travels of my sisters and brothers, worries about
sick relatives, things she was looking forward to. I can see her in my mind’s eye. I knew were she wrote the letters. She would write at night, at a desk in front
of the window in the den of our house in Covington,
Louisiana. As time passed, she had to use a machine
called a Telesensory device. It had a
large screen that enlarged whatever she was working on, be it a book or a
letter, or coupons. It was a wonderful
machine. I can see her now, leaning
close to the screen, moving her hand that held a pen across the flat surface of
the machine. I could here her speaking
softly each word that she read, as if it was an added pleasure given by the
machine. She was gradually losing her
sight and the letters I have were from times when she could still write well
and legibly. But the last few years of
her life were difficult. She became
totally blind and I know how much she missed reading and writing. She used a tape player to play recorded
books, and that was a big help. She told me often how much she missed looking
at my photographs and when my photo books were published I felt the pain she
knew when she could not hold the books and look at the pictures.
Dad’s letters were newsy, too. He often apologized to me, telling me that he
did not know what to write. But he wrote
well, and I told him so to encourage him to keep sending the letters. He, too, wrote about family things, with an
occasional foray into church concerns or politics.
I also have many pictures of
them. I took them all through the
years. Some are posed pictures,
especially the ones Dad took when we kids were little. I have them, too. He would gather us on the front lawn for
Easter pictures, birthday pictures, confirmation and graduation pictures. I took more “everyday” kinds of pictures,
photos of us sitting around the house, doing all the many things that make up
ordinary life. I am glad I have
them.
The letters and the photographs
bring back so many memories.
A friend of mine wrote me a letter
that arrived in the mail a few days ago.
He writes the end, and if I may quote him, “It is impossible to know how
we contribute or influence the Kingdom.
Amidst the boredom of moving bonsai plants from A to B, or the tedium of
making changes to your tome on grace..it is in the innocence of human behavior
that God reveals his mystery.”
Beautiful words.
Mom and dad wanted to let me know
that they loved me and one of those ways was by writing letters to me all
through the years. The letters offer a
glimpse into their concerns, concerns that were made of the stuff of day to day
life. Banal, simple, mundane things –
things from which are lives are made and through which small things contribute
to the tender majesty and true greatness of any human life. But we never see it when we are given them,
when we write about them, and when later in life, when the writers and picture
takers are long gone, we are moved to tears at the beautiful wonder of it
all.
The letters and the photographs are
possessed of a power that lies precisely in their being able to offer a
portrait of lives that gave themselves away in love. And a part of that was writing letters and
taking pictures.
Such gifts make me wonder how
little we know the effect that our words, our lives, have on each other. Looking back, and looking at the pictures and
reading the letters, so much grace was pouring through a slowly moving pen, a
carefully turned lens. The letters are
wonderful, and so are the pictures. I am
grateful.
It is Sunday, a few weeks before
Christmas. People are writing today and
taking pictures. Freshly made tokens of
love that will arrive in cards all over the earth. Someday, they will reveal infinitely more
than they do at this time. The cards and
letters and photos will age with time and will take on a beauty that only time
– and God – can give.
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